since it has been a while and there is news it is time.
midway ct was last week. results:
most of the lung tumors/nodules are essentially not noted or much improved
lymph node near aorta is a couple of millimeters larger with and area of less density that could be necrosis or dead tissue
tumor markers coming down
so, doc does not see this as progression so we will continue on course with rest of treatments
there are issues however:
i am not doing well on this drug
the last couple of cycles have been hard
extreme fatigue, hands peeling, peeling rash on face
saw doc monday, taxotere is too toxic for me
we have to stop for a break to get me feeling better and get relief for the side effects
taking a few days of extra steroids for that
we will continue with another drug, perhaps return to taxol that i rec'd last year since i seemed to tolerate it better and the cancer responded to it
my right ear is roaring and seems "plugged"
saw ent doc, there is slight hearing loss in that ear
either chemical cause or tumor, no infection or fluid, but inner ear or nerve problem
had mri of head tonite, will get results tomorrow
how am i doing?
scared that without chemo it will start to grow again, it did before
why since the drugs seem to be doing a number on me can't it kill the damn cancer
my faith is low, it gets harder as time goes on
i am afraid that until i genuinely tell God "whatever" He will not heal me
i know in my heart i am at His mercy and "whatever" is what is in there
but i still don't want it to be over yet
just cannot help it
some friends assured me they are my "aaron" and will have faith for me
if you don't know the story of moses and his brother aaron look it up, it is great encouragement
i need lots more "aarons".........
I will be an Aaron and Hur. Still believing for your healing. Joshua said, "Be Strong and of Good Courage for the Lord Thy God is with YOU".
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ReplyDeleteYou are one of the strongest women I am blessed to know. Your faith and perserverance are testimony to us all. I, too, will be an Aaron for you...
Blessings,
Laura King
We are standing in the gap for you my sweet friend!!
ReplyDeleteBig, big hug and kiss to you. Certainly will continue to pray for healing. So, appreciate your forthrightness.
ReplyDeletePeace and Blessings,
Leslie
Diane,
ReplyDeleteCount me as one of your Aarons! I pray that God will restore your body during this much needed time of rest. I pray that no cancer will be allowed to take advantage of this time and that it will be contained. I ask God to give you encouragement and to protect your faith from the work of Satan who wants to do nothing but take your peace. Please God strengthen Dianes peace and resolve. In the name of Jesus. When you get a chance please send me your phone num. I have lost it and would like to get in touch with you. I am that direction every Fri. at 4:00 for piano lessons. I am finally virus free after a stinking 9 weeks! Not fit company for someone with a weakened immune system! Please take care.
is this linda !
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ReplyDeleteI will also be your Aarons but I must be honest that I know nothing about the bible nor have I ever read the bible. Religion has always been a touchie subject for me, not sure why? I have never been one who has nor believes in faith, something that I do not understand. I have always assumed or had the notion that when my time is up, then it is time to cash in the checks and savings bonds and go out with a bang. Your blogs make me very emotional and bring back a lot of fears and emotions that I had when going thru kidney cancer with a year of chemotherapy that I must continue to read your words of encouragement and sarcasm...(-: We all want to say, "be strong and fight," when words do not come so easily or we just do not know what to say. Keep blogging Diane.
Christopher aka CR from CVSU
Praying for you Diane! God WILL NOT LET YOU DOWN. He does love you. He will honor all of his promises to you. He knows His plans for you, and he can restore your hope in your future. Lord, I pray for Diane to not be afraid, give her more grace and strength than she's ever known. I pray for You to be glorified in her fight and in Your victory. Diane has always been a warrior for You, Lord. fight the battle God, may Your name be glorified in Diane's struggle. We ask for relief of pain, and restoration of hearing. We pray for physical victory in her body to bring you the most glory. We pray for David and Diane as they face these dark days. Let them feel your presence in new ways.
ReplyDeletei am having brain farts! cannot figure out who you are. forgive me. can you let me know?
DeletePraying for your strength in this battle! Hope you feel the strength of the love and prayers being sent your way from all who love you. God give Diane a double portion of your Spirit! For your Glory LORD we pray for her complete and thorough healing! Bless her family and give them strength. 2 Corinthians 4:7-9 "But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side but not crushed, perplexed but not in despair, persecuted but not abandoned, struck down but NOT DESTROYED!!" Love and Hugs to you!!
ReplyDeleteLOVE the story of Aaron!!! I WILL be an Aaron for you and have been all along!!!!!!! LOVE Psalm 3:3 You OH LORD are a shield for me, my glory and the lifter of my head!!!!! Continuing to pray for you!!!!!!!!
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